Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Woe is Me



                It’s come to my understanding that no matter what the circumstances are someone will end up judging you.  The judgment will come down if you are male, female, child, adult, gay, straight, fat, skinny; whatever the case.  I do it myself and I am ashamed to admit it.  The problem with this is when you mention it to anyone their first thought is that you are just bitching about it and it shouldn’t be a problem; you should grow thicker skin.  Well you know what?  It is and it should be noticed.  We live in a world where things like this just go unchecked and we are putting our own unwillingness to acknowledge the fact that something is wrong above the well-being of our friends and family. 

                Now, that I have said my piece about these issues I want to dive into one matter that has plagued me since the post of the girl with the Xbox controller hit the web.  This spawned more and more disturbing images of girls using the guitar controller in a sexual manner and photos of nude girls with controllers covering themselves; gamer girls.  Although the Xbox controller girl didn’t mean to start this it happened.  Being a gamer myself I find it all quite disturbing but at the same time I know why girls feel the need to do things like this.  They want guys to know that you don’t have to look one specific way to be a gamer because most people believe girls are overweight and don’t carry themselves in a girly fashion.  The pictures show otherwise, and while they are pandering, they are doing it because they were provoked.  It has been that way for a long time.  I remember not wanting to speak to guild members in vent because I was afraid of being judge for being a girl.

                On the other hand pandering and showing guys these pictures are giving us girls this horrible negative image.  I was on tumblr the other day and someone posted something that said “oh you’re a girl and you’re mediocre at video games?  You can go pro.”  This is some of the saddest things I’ve seen.  I know that having girls on a pro team can help bring in viewers but having a girl that is just average at the game will just build up the stereotype that looks matter more than your gaming abilities.  I don’t even play games much in front of people because of the pressure.  If you’re a girl and you don’t play above average you will get judge twice as harshly as a man that plays a game below average.  It’s like we can’t make mistakes and it keeps most of us hidden away from the gaming communities, and even when we do show ourselves the first thing most ask for are pictures.  When we refuse you call us fat, or ugly; mostly both.  That isn’t what we came here for, it isn’t why we make videos, live stream, or play games; well at least I don’t, I can’t be so bold as to speak for all the girls that are gamers.

                We have given ourselves this horrible stereotype and now we have burdened ourselves to uphold these stupid standards and the video game world wants us to do just that; be pretty, play subpar.  Don’t do this; don’t stop trying because you have already gain success; it doesn’t nothing for you successors.  These are the things that will end up holding other girls that play hardcore games, speed run, and produce amazing content shame.  I wish these words could actually help out the female population of gamers but I know that it will continue because of the major success they gained from dressing provocatively and playing poorly.  I just wanted to vent my frustrations because seeing that one little post on tumblr made me want to cry.  It’s hard making it out there as a woman already, and being a strange one that sits at home on Friday nights playing Batman isn’t making it any easier.  We just want to be seen as normal and while some of us want special treatment because we have boobs doesn’t mean all of us do.